A Wonderful Boy Named Trey

Today I'm reflecting ... what a crazy 27 years it's been and what a crazy ride this past year alone has been! Did I think I would be 27 and still single, living in an apartment, working for a non-profit doing more admin than marketing??? No I didn't but am I content with where I am? Yes... depending on the day that answer can change but I can genuinely say that I am content with where the Lord has me right now. Life hasn't been perfect but that's because I'm an imperfect being who serves a loving, all-knowing God that loves me with a crazy love and knows what is best for me even if I don't understand it all. At the risk of sounding cliche I can truly understand the song lyrics from the Rascal Flatts song, "God bless this broken road that led me straight to you." This has indeed been a broken road but what a blessing the last six weeks have been and what a lucky girl I am! I've always had amazing friends and an absolutely fabulous family but the Lord has recently brought a person into my life that I honestly can't imagine not having around. I don't know what the future holds only the Lord knows what is to come but I'm living each day to the fullest and enjoying every second of this newly found relationship.
When I think about the things I thought I needed right now in my life I realize the Lord truly does know best. I'm not weird (well I believe that might be up for debate according to some), I'm not abnormal, I'm not a "late-bloomer," I'm not on the wrong path. On the contrary I believe I'm right where I'm supposed to be, God guiding me, holding my hand as I take this journey called life. Why do I worry, why do I fret? Worrying never added a day to anyone's life, why do I believe it will add anything to mine?
Thank you Lord for your provisions, for your ever-loving care of me, for choosing me and loving me and never giving up on me. Thank you for your new mercies each morning and for the blessings you bestow upon me each day. I don't ever want to take them for granted and I never want to become complacent. Help me serve you to my very best ability each day and give you all the glory.
To the wonderful boy named, Trey, I can't say enough how thankful I am that you are in my life. You make me feel special, beautiful, cared for, and wanted. You challenge me to be a better person and to live life to the fullest. You are a true Godsend and I am excitedly looking forward to what God has in store for us. You are kind, caring, compassionate, dedicated, motivated, hard-working, considerate, polite, fun, and the list could go on. You make me proud to be your girlfriend!
Ok enough gushing for one night. I'll leave you with the verse of the day "Devote yourselves to prayer with an alert mind and a thankful heart." Colossions 4:2

Late Night Worrying

Ok so I'm sitting here and it's past my bedtime. But someone was supposed to call me tonight and has not done so. I wouldn't be "worrying" (hence the title) except that this is very atypical of said person. As I sit here and analyze what happened I tend to think the worst (you can thank my mother for this trait). I do, indeed, hope that it's just a case of the "oops I forgot or oops I got tired" excuse. I, knowing myself, will still be upset but I will realize that there are more important things in life to be concerned about. So I'm going to pray:

Please, Lord, take hold of my thoughts as my mind is wandering in places I just would rather not go ... you are my refuge, my strength, my comfort in times like this. Please cover me with your peace and wash over me like sun on a bright day. I take heart knowing you are in control and you will not cause me to endure anything that you are not prepared to walk me through. Dry my tears and calm my nerves, help me to cling to you and know you are with me always. Thank you, Jesus, for your crazy love for me in that while I was still a sinner (and am to this day) you gave up your life for me. Help me to fall in love with you more each day and when I don't love you I want to love, so help me on those days to try even harder. You are my one desire - everything else in life is granted to us because you love us so much and want the very best for your children. Allow me to always remember that truth!

Goodnight

The Beginning of the End ...

So I'm going to try and start blogging more - decided to ditch Xanga and use this instead. For anyone that would like to know what's happening in my life - feel free to read. But more than anything this is just for me to pen (or type) my thoughts. I hope the Lord will use this as a growing tool - emotionally, mentally, spiritally, etc.

Onward I go ...